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Vanishing thots @ Sunday, June 27, 2010 | back to top

yest @ the wake, i saw a pic of my uncle in his 20s..
he's really gd lookin..moreover he can speak English...
he must b a heart-throb during his time...
they were oso sayin how much he looked like my grandma..
& dat she was a beautiful lady, looked like Caucasian, ..

tmr my uncle will b ashes & memories..
his place in my heart remains..
but he will b far beyond my reach...
juz like the sky, so clear right in front of my eyes..
but i can never touch...

i feel so uncomfortable..
if only our hearts can be taken out..even for juz a day or two...
den my heart need not be connected to me...
& i will juz put it back another day...

IF ONLY.............

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Vanishing thots @ Friday, June 25, 2010 | back to top

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Vanishing thots @ Thursday, June 24, 2010 | back to top

today @ 2pm my uncle left..
my cousin said he passed away peacefully..
i was glad his sufferin has ended..
but i cldnt deny the fact dat i miss him..
his departure saddens me....

after informin my family, i went cryin in the toilet cubicle..
i duno where else to hide to clam myself down..
& i really appreciate Kris for drivin me home...
she was already late for her appt wif client...

went to my uncle's wake juz now..i felt weird..
i duno wat much to say...

tmr is actually Eric's birthday & our 2nd anniversary..
i felt sorry i cldnt celebrate with him on this special day..

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Vanishing thots @ Wednesday, June 23, 2010 | back to top

left class halfway on Tues to visit my uncle..
he was runnin a fever & doc says he may not make it thru the nite..

compared to Sat, he seemed to have aged years again...
his right eye also seem to went blind?..there is dis white layer..
his eyes were only 1/3 opened, not blinkin..

the only time he moved was when he was in pain/unwell..
frowning, liftin of hands & legs..even gasping..
i was so afraid he will juz go out of breath..
he cldnt express himself..cant tok nor haf the strength to write..
we do not know wat he wans or need..

in the end the nurse gif him an injection...
its pure sadness to watch him sufferin & cld b of no help..

"来来来...不要不开心! 笑一个嘛..."

skippin to other stuff dats more light hearted..
the bags Jenelle & me ordered r here..!!
thanx to my mum for helpin me to collect at post office..
sumhow it was undelivered...

unwrappin dis parcel from US..

if u know me, u wld haf guessed correctly which is mine..
shld haf shown my mum the orange side instead of the pink..
den she might have guessed wrongly..too big a hint i slipped..

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Vanishing thots @ Monday, June 21, 2010 | back to top

my favourite teams for World Cup lost matches recently..
now i cant even go where i wana go..
suppose to go Universal Studio dis fri..
but tix were sold out...haiz..

i juz wana focus on other stuff..stuff dat makes me happy..
but look wat happens...

two days back i went to visit my uncle after class..
went wif my mum, aunt & Eric...
my cousin called me dat day to update on my uncle's condition..
he can't recognize pple & dere's stuff flowin out of his tummy..

on Thurs..i saw my dad with teary eyes & shaken voice..
i told myself not to cry in front of him...
but on sat when i saw my uncle lying dere..in a daze..
with the Buddhist charm playin in the background...

i know im losing him soon...i feel sad & afraid..
so afraid his breathing juz stops...he's breathin so hard...
for a moment he opened his eyes wide..recognizing me..
den he falls into daze again..

my heart went even heavy when he reach out his hand and held mine..
but he couldnt speak..nor smile..nor haf the strength to write..
i cldnt figure out wat he is tryin to say..

in March doc says he has 6 mths..den 3 mths in May..
but wat is happenin now..
did time play cheat & forwarded itself..?

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Vanishing thots @ Friday, June 18, 2010 | back to top

disappointed dat France lost 2-0 to Mexico...
even more disappointed dat Germany lost 1-0 to Serbia..
i seriously cant believe Germany will lose...wat happened..?!
moreover Klose got a red card..!

had class so missed the match..
but i recorded it, definitely gonna watch..
juz have to c for myself.....

neway i had a 'unnatural dream' laz nite...
it felt real but i tink it was juz a dream..
i changed my mind abt writing it out in details...

afterall..its not sum let-me-hear-abt-it story...

i 吓到 at 1st..but thereafter i was mainly puzzled....
i dun understand y...but 算了.....it's over...

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Vanishing thots @ Thursday, June 17, 2010 | back to top

wun b tokin abt World Cup for dis entry..
takin a little break...but im still catchin the matches..
of cos not all...

neway went to visit my uncle with my parents earlier on...
my cousin told me 2 days back dat he will b gone soon..
his body is rejectin the med oreadi...

he is even more frail..shrinkin in size..
lookin at him..i doubt the identity of the man lyin on the bed..
最熟悉的陌生人..dats wat i felt..
my uncle doesn't look like dis..
feels like he has gone missin..

i miss my uncle..

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Vanishing thots @ Monday, June 14, 2010 | back to top

im so damn slpy now...gonna slp soon...

laz nite woke up to catch the 2.30am match..
it was definitely worth it..Germany is good..! 4 - 0..
but honestly, i didn't expect the score gap to be so big for Australia..

caught The A-Team wif Eric yest..
it was nice as i expected..moreover, it was funi..!
i thot it was juz more of an action movie..so it was great enjoyment..

ohh..my 1st time to bet in World Cup..asked by Jenelle...
i haf alwaz only watched..so it was pretty fun to play bet..
but no beginner's luck...i bet 2-1 for Holland VS Denmark..
who knows it was 2-0, with one own goal frm Denmark.. -.-

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Vanishing thots @ Saturday, June 12, 2010 | back to top

Great match btn these 2 teams though i only caught laz 30+ min..
will try to catch the repeated telecast..
missed the match btn South Korea & Greece..2 - 0..
but my bro oreadi recorded it.. =)

openin match was a draw..so was the 2nd game...
i dun really like Mexico's goalkepper...
he like kinda lost..not very firm/stable...
but still, i hoped for a draw when South Africa scored..
sum weird tinkin of mine...

aggressive game btn France & Uruguay..all the yellow & red cards..
France was mostly dominating the game, but juz cldnt strike a goal...
hmm..Uruguay defence is good..

looking forward to the next match @ 2.30am.. zZzzzZ

neway caught the Killers wif Eric on thurs..
it was very funi..had a great laugh...
& Ashton Kutcher is hot.. =)

nuting much dis wk wif 3 days of sch... -.-
my younger bro is back safely from Cambodia...
can't believe he was admitted to hospital twice durin dis sch svc trip...

hmm...did i miss out sumting..?
keep feelin i 4gotten sumting....

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Vanishing thots @ Monday, June 07, 2010 | back to top

today is like so unreal...so 不可思议..
one 不好的不可思议..one 好的不可思议..

lets start wif the unpleasant one...
went to visit my uncle wif my mum & an aunt..
i was pretty shock when i saw him...
even thot i went to the wrong room..

it was as if i hafnt visited him for years...he aged soo much..
he is even more dependent on the breathing kit/mask..
& he grew thinner..looking fatigue...
his left arm is damn swollen..cos the blood is clot dere..

my cousin said he had breathing difficulty in the morning..
doc says he is gettin weaker.....
the speed of how his condition deteriorate is unbelievable..
m i oreadi 30 yrs old..? i felt as if time has went rocket fast..

now the good issue was my QMM result..
i actually got 98..!! wat kind of mark is dis..?
it felt sooo unreal..m i back to primary sch days?

m i actually dreaming...? lost in sum other dimension..?
one moment im like 5 yrs into the future..
& next im back to my past when i was 7 or 8 yrs old...

今天好不真实..........

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Vanishing thots @ Friday, June 04, 2010 | back to top

currently im listening to the above album..nice songs..!
Mark Chua (2nd Mark in my office) lend me the CD.. =)

he's the new manager..really funi guy..
a nice one too..considerin wat happen @ lunch today..
he acc me to wait for my fries when he could leave the stall & eat 1st..
we oreadi waited damn long for our pork chop prior to dat..

neway i got back 2 of my results..& im very happy..
i have looked at it 3 times..to ensure my eyes r not playin tricks..
i actually got 62, a B for my ODTW..
dis was the module dat i picked wrong topics to study..
the one dat i wished i was the 乱写天后..

den i got 75, an A for my IMS....
i can't quite rem abt dis paper..except i drew a diagram..
one more result left..my frenz oreadi got it today..

i miss my uncle..hafnt been visitin him the past 2 wks..
i dun wan to see his condition deteriorate..
but i cant control his well-being..
so..im kinda scare to see him...

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Vanishing thots @ Thursday, June 03, 2010 | back to top

Bao Yun bought dis for me..so sweet rite... =)

neway caught Sex & the City 2 wif Eric yest ..
it's very funi...& touchin at the ending...
nt 4gettin all the luxury & enjoyment in the movie....

4got to mention i cut off my wallet recently (4got when)..
my pic was stuck..& eventually torn though i got it out...
if dis wallet wasn't a gift, i would haf thrown it away after the cut..
but im definitely lookin for new one..

laz sat went town wif Eric..dinner, walk ard..find Jenelle..
den went AMK Hub for movie, with her Eric joinin us...
suppose to be KTV..buffet..den movie..
but last min changes as Eric 4got he had weddin dinner to attend..lolz..

we caught Prince of Persia..its very nice..
the princess is really pretty..nice plot & actions...

hmm...Jenelle juz told me she got back 2 result slips..
where are mine Mr Postman..?????? makin me so 不安心..!

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