today went to attend my company's HACCP foundation training..
very interesting...i enjoyed the class..
sumore got Geok Tin..so not all new faces...
n my group oso very frenly... =)
met Eric @ Bugis..2day marks 21 mths 2gether...
didnt specially celebrate..but it was enjoyable.. =)
caught How To Train Your Dragon @ illuma...
so cool to ride dragons..the ending of the boy is alittle pitiful..
but @ least he is happy..made major changes..& everyone's proud of him..
den i got myself 3 dresses & a top...
i need new wardrobe..or new cupboards to relocate my bags..
Eric got me dis when we I am shoppin..i love cat prints/designs..
neway im kinda hesitating abt continuing my driving..
i tink its so hard..im kinda scared in a way...
alrite..sumting random..i quite like to eat dis..
hmm..hope my uncle will let me know soon abt meeting/seeing him..
i wan to know if he's even better..
n not worry abt me worryin or so...
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yest was the day of my last paper, ODTW..
focus on wrong topics/tips to study..the 冷门 questions came out...so 4 out of 8 qns dat I'm suppose to do..I only knew 3.!!1 of the qn i 乱写的,
base on wateva i can tink of..
can i be the 乱写天后..? i need every mark i can get...its a double credit paper..! God bless me....
the surprising ting was i didn't feel like cryin or so..
it was juz - Shock ~ Write wateva i can ~ Happy dat its all over..
&..yest was Aaron's Birthday..!
neway my uncle is discharged today...
he only msg me after he is safe back hm..
i wondered if any1 fetched him back..
yest he was afraid I was worried..
asked me to concentrate on my exam..
now my concern is how can I in anyway help tk care of him..
hmm..bon's uncle happen to be in ICU now..
understand the feelin of wishin u were right in front of the person..moreover, she still need to fly back to Hong Kong..
hope tings wun be too bad for both her uncle n her...
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caught Kidnapper wif Eric on fri...
quite afew loop holes abt the story..
but overall not bad..pretty nice..
the kidnapper is simply psycho, nt juz abt $..
today went to discuss pointers for ODTW..
met Jenelle, (her) Eric & Celeste @ CCK..
dis tues' paper is double credit...!!
i had wrong planning today..
shld haf visited my uncle..i thot i wun haf time to do so..笨死了!!
neway went to collect SHE concert tix..
sumting to look forward to in April.. =)
顺便 bought dinner hm...chix chop rice...
not bad, quite nice..except the kim chi is a little spicy for me..
i need xtra 加油 for Tues paper..not juz becos of the heavy weightage...
but i duno y, i kept havin fever on & off since Fri nite..
not serious kind..but its drainin my energy..
hard to focus..kept wantin to rez/slp...
& if i dun...the headache visits me..烦!!
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命中注定我愛你 is very nice..
can't believe i caught the show so late...
so far i've watched till episode 9..
neway, done wif IMS..one more paper down... =)
took abt 5 min to choose which qns to do...
was nervous..& mind went alittle blank..
info jumbled up..juz kept writing till time's up..once again, hope everyting's ok....
went to visit my uncle after my exam...
it wasn't stitch up actually..
juz dat he need not be attached to the tube..
permanently he has to haf dis tingy attached to his throat..
i duno wats the term for all these medical devices..
he has to press the ting to his throat in order to tok..
& he wun b able to take in solid food...
he looks much better today..
but was tokin abt his condition wif my cousin...
its actually lung cancer dat has spread out to the throat..
so i cant imagine how bad the condition is..
or how late stage he is at.. =(
the thot of it saddens me..i duno how to face the fact..
when he asked my cousin (his daughter) to send me hm..
he said "jie jie send you back"...
i duno y, but 这句话 makes me feel time flowin back 10+ yrs..
i c myself as a little gal n him oso back to the same time zone..
ok, i duno wat im tryin to say..
its juz dis very special feelin i feel...
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hmm..today im done with 1 paper..
QMM settled..2 more papers to go..
surprisingly i finished the paper pretty early..
i even did 4 qns and omitted one..
i wasn't confident, dats y i changed qn..
practiced afew sets of past yr papers for dis..
hopefully everything's ok..
the right formulas and not too many silly mistakes..
God bless me...!
neway..had another gastric attack yest..
im alwaz amused of gettin new med for the same old prob..
doc says no oily and spicy food..& no gassy drinks!!
gonna miss my fav root beer, sarsi, coke light & fuji apple..
neway..its pretty hard to differentiate gd & bad pple..
dere r pple who r so gd at playin nice...
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my 大哥..!
im so super tired...
haf being readin & writin frm 9+am to 4+pm..
finally sort of done off with IMS (thurs exam - theory) preparation...
really pushed myself very hard, even skipped lunch..
neway i dun haf much appetite these few days..
can't even finish a normal meal portion..
hmm..yet to start wif QMM (TUES exam - calculation)..
im so not familiar wif the formulas...
i sux @ Maths stuff...haiz...
im left wif so little time..God bless me..!
but i was glad to see my uncle dis evenin.. =)
he is still experiencing pain..
they will be stitchin up the throat on Wed..
he smiled quite alot today..
so i felt kinda happy & more at ease to see him smile...
hope he will be even better..
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Jenelle, Annie & Kangaroo asked me nt to give up on the exams..
Jenelle even called me, but i cldnt tok..
appreciate the concerns...
Aaron says to manage my time well..
so i was tinkin abt balancin btn exams n my uncle..
today, I told myself i can do it..
i push myself to do up preparation for my exams..
but its so hard...i spend hours juz to do 1 qn..
i cant focus..my mind keeps goin blank..
its so frustratin, i duno wat to do..
i duno if my uncle is feelin better today..
can i not prepare for the exams..?
can i not pretend today is like any normal day..?
can i not be strong..?
i know its not the end of the world..
but dere's a hole in my heart..
n im so mentally exhausted....
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im cryin my eyes swollen..cryin till my eyes hurt...
i duno how to stop the pain in my heart..
laz nite my mum told me my 二叔 is hospitalized..
& dat he had cancer..late stage...
my dad n him aren't exactly on the gd terms..
so i haven't seen him for yrs...
but he alwaz had a place in my heart..he's like a daddy to me..
he doted me alot when i was young..
i rem receiving calls frm him..& sumtimes he drops by to visit..
i'll alwaz get double amt of $ compared to my bros..
he controlled his temper against my dad for me..
he gets me computer when i mentioned the need for it...
i oso rem he asked me to move & stay wif his family..
he wanted me to haf a better living under his care...
i took half day leave to visit him today..
he was in the operating theatre when i reached wif my mum..
my 三叔 told my mum dat 二叔 haf 6 mths left..
i hope its an inaccurate piece of msg..or dat the doc is wrong..
i told myself not to cry in front of my 二叔..
but i juz cldnt control myself..the lost weight..
the big tube connectin to his throat..the blood traces frm the op..
it really pains my heart...& further pain to see the words "very pain"..
we were communicatin by writin throughout the visit..
my parents, 三叔 & 阿姨 were curious abt our 'conversation'..
& he actually cried when he saw me..
i duno how to describe my feelings..
seein him in tears juz put me into more tears..
my mum had to calm me dwn...
我的心真的很痛..i duno wat to do..
i told him i was sorry i didnt visit him for so long..
i oso told him dat he's like a father to me..
meant them frm my heart..nt becos he's ill now..
i duno how to continue dis entry..i took abt 4 hrs to type till here..
dere's juz so much stuff goin on in my mind..yet it seems empty..
y m i having exams..? i totally stopped my preparation..
i can't focus..i keep tinkin abt him @ the hospital..
i feel like giving up on dis sem's exams..
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TICK TOCK TICK TOCK...
can hear the time running away...
im short of time to prepare for my exams..!!
im not lazing ard oreadi..
juz taking a short break now...
afterall i can't study wif a full stomach.. =b
please wish me all the best..!!!!
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什么样的爱能用宇宙的大来做比喻...？
我只能想到无私的爱...
无私的爱简单来说，应该是无条件付出，不求回报..那，会计价的爱又怎能拿宇宙的大来做比喻..？
还是其实宇宙是如此的渺小，是我自己把它看大了..？
bon 曾说过我是 alien.. 想法常让人无法理解..
能够明白我的 earthlings, 我就应该要感谢他们..
如果我真是 alien，也住在地球 20+ yrs 了吧..
为什么还是不能 blend in..? 不被理解也不会解释自己..？
突然感到如此可悲..
难过....
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lazy to blog...& my comp is unpredictable..lasted for hours..had to visit the doc..
捞 4 times of 鱼生 dis yr..more than enuff..
twice @ hm..once @ office...& another @ Sakae Sushi..
went wif Annie, Regine & Evelyn laz Mon...dun haf the grp pic wif me..
we ate till super bloated..!!
i skipped sch today..& tutorial laz laz Sat..
sch will end dis Sat..den prepare for exam..!
had steamboat with Bon @ Bukit Timah laz laz Sat..
very enjoyable..tokin abt diff stuff..
i even laugh till i swallow down 2 chewin gums..
Eric cooked pasta for me to eat on Sat.. =)
very nice, i eat till very full...
den his relatives from Malaysia came to visit on Sun...
the weather these few days damn hot...
melting me off....
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we went to c the sakura....really pretty..
den we had dinner @ Tonkichi..
i super love the ice cream..!! =)
we ate till super full..stomach bloated kind..
den we caught Whip It..its very nice..
& for today, I caught another movie..wif Eric..
neway...i love this pair of Keep shoes..saw it @ Cine..
neway im kinda hesitating abt continuing my driving..
hmm..hope my uncle will let me know soon abt meeting/seeing him..
neway went to collect SHE concert tix..
i need xtra 加油 for Tues paper..
neway..its pretty hard to differentiate gd & bad pple..
we were communicatin by writin throughout the visit..
seein him in tears juz put me into more tears..
im not lazing ard oreadi..
& i actually 4got i caught Alls Well Ends Well Too 2010 wif my bro..
& here cum sum CNY pics...
hmm..i guess dat's abt it...
my dad was lookin for her for 1+hr..
lion dance performance @ office on 初四..
had a pretty bad gastric sumwhere laz week..
we ate till super bloated..!!
I love surprises.
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