Vanishing thots @ Wednesday, October 31, 2007 | back to top
been tinking abt to go or to stay...was tinking is it worth to stay for the 13th month..im more to wanting to leave..points thot of:
LEAVE
1) Pro-rated
2) 13th month is for basic pay, so muz minus my allowances
3) plus minus CPF
* first 3 points summarized to not getting alot though not a small amount too lar
4a) long ago oreadi no motivation to stay on
b) even more sianz as no pro-rated profit sharing end of dis mth
5) really cant stand the shift (e.g today work till ard 1030pm, tmr working 730am)
6) working extra hard due to shortage of staff plus........
7) low pay (if the pay is high, work extra hard still ok lar)
8) the few hundreds dat i will be getting for the 13th mth can be covered back within 2-3 mths if i change to a higher paying job
9) if i wait for 13th mth, i can only leave earliest beginning of Feb.. cos can only tender resignation after 13th mth, which is beginning of Jan and den 1 mth notice....
10) Nana is leaving...
STAY
1) though its juz afew hundreds, but its still $$$..and.......
2) i love $$ !!!
3) if i juz leave w/o the bonus, feels like i have stayed for nuting..
though the reasons to stay has only got 3 points..but the 1st 2 points are killers..! i juz cant bear 'leaving' the few hundred dollar$..MONEY ar MONEY..............!! when can i ever stop loving u.....??!!
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Vanishing thots @ Monday, October 29, 2007 | back to top
this entry is full of crap..thots jumping out of here and dere...u might wana close the browser now..finally today get to work with Nana..so happy...but too bad today too busy to sit down and tok cock...but still manage to get sum laughter...but sad ting is she submit her resignation..so she will be gone from work near end Nov..hmm..shld i go or stay for the pro-rated 13th mth..?Suddenly thot of 2 movies watched...I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry, which is so funi..and Balls Of Fury, which is not very nice..hmm..these few days is/gonna be very no life...cos super duper broke...! so after work can only go home..tmr and wed working noon shift, so still can gif myself an excuse dat i cant go out...D&D coming this sat..theme is colour..duno wat to wear..might be goin shopping with some frenz on thurs..today met this lady at work..got to know dat she actually has cancer..its at the early stage but still, the way she speaks and smile, u probably wun tell she has any illness... **feel like giving her a hug..im the kind of person who hides prob/issue (in real life not in this blog lar where i complain and grumble)....unless i want it made know..if i wana hide sumting, i make sure no one can tell..and i manage to do so, pple say im the 'no worries/problem type'..everyday like so happy..i wish everyday im really so happy..but too bad life is not a smooth sail...sum pple say im strong, sum see me as a 'Tofu'..the 'tofu' side mostly cums from my appearance lar..pple who sees me as strong are those i share my problems with, and usually i share them after they have becum history..so they were surprise they cldnt tell i went thru dis and dat..but i duno wat kind of person i m..soft on the outside, strong on the inside or the other way round..? or im juz basically a tofu..? **wateverAniway there's once this guy (Tian Xin) who manage to tell i had prob even though i was laughing and playing ard with my frenz at my previous part time job...i was shocked and touched, the way he mention abt his observation..he is the 3rd and last guy to touch my heart..its not easy to make me touch..pple say im heartless....but appreciation and touch are two very diff levels..i may super appreciate wat u have done but doesnt mean i will be touched by it...i had a guy fren who asked me this b4 "usually i do dis/dat, the gals will be touched..but not u..y r u liddat?" ..wat can i say to him besides "because im not them ar"....?hmm..mayb its wat Nicky had comment abt his guess on my character..dat i think like a man but work like a woman..interesting comment eh..
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Vanishing thots @ Sunday, October 28, 2007 | back to top
when i reached my blk juz now after work..i saw this boy from the 4th floor..wats the big deal abt dis..?well, its been sumtime since i saw him and this boy freak me out b4..! hmm..let me describe him first..i tink he shld be in upper primary or the most, lower sec..duno malay or chinese..erm..on the meaty side, i tink taller than me..or was it same height..?
B4 the incident, i saw this boy afew times..he wld alwaz smile to me and of cos i wld smile back to him..the incident was there's dis once..(juz a rough memory, cant rem exactly) instead of going to his own floor..he went to my floor..and got out of the lift with me..i was shock..he waved bye to me and all but he didnt leave..he was like seeing me walk towards my unit (i lived rite at the end)..i was so scared..i mean wat is he trying to do..?call me a scare-dy cat or watever, i told my dad abt it..my dad went out of the hse (he was still at my floor)..he ran off when my dad started to question him..
so juz now when i saw him, i hesitate taking the same lift as him...still a little scared..i didnt look at him at all in the lift until he got out..smiled twice to me though, once when he got out and another when he turned back again b4 the lift moves up...
Neway..my mum juz lost her job..wat's next...? how many unhappy tings muz happen..? sumore one after another..i had always believe or feel dat i cant be too happy at any part of my life..its like whenever i feel really happy or everything is going very smoothly, den surely sumting bad/unhappy will happen..its as if 'Happy' cant be on the heavier side of the weighing scale..'Unhappy' must fight for balance..haiz..i need more 'Happy'....!!!
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Vanishing thots @ Saturday, October 27, 2007 | back to top
iM feeLin daMn LousY noW...i jUz found out dat im NOT entitiled to the profit sharing end of dis month..when i got to know it, i was like "WAT THE F*CK"...for dat very minute, my mind was in a total mess..i mean, i withdraw my resignation for the sake of the $$..when i submit my resignation, everyone was like saying how stupid i was not to wait for the profit sharing though i WILL BE GETTING pro-rated amt..so after sum thot, and for the sake of $$, i decided to withdraw my resignation...now wat..i guess i was really stupid to withdraw my resignation..and the fact i cant change or do anyting seriously drives me crazy..my frenz felt bad abt it for asking me to stay, they didnt know confirmation after 30th june wun b entitled, though i joined in the first half (mid may) of the year..but i cant blame them..afterall who made the final decision..? ME..!there r pple who tell me stuff like "never mind lor, wait for 13th month"..i really duno how to make them understand dat this profit sharing affects me alot..i endured at my workplace for it..and the $$ i thot i wld be getting..it all sums up to NUTING..i was oso told to wait for next year april's profit sharin..pls, im not going to stay till dat long..TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE..anyway, yesterday i am so idiot..i was meeting Bon to go for a movie..cos i got the free tix tingy, and im goin to treat her..so i happily left the house with the stuff i bought for her frm taiwan (finally i rem to bring for her)..den only @ Raffles place i suddenly rem i left the tix at my table where i reminded myself to put into my bag...at dat point of time im like "aRGGGHHhh"..really 'beat chest' sia..! But as Bon had said, if i rem, den i wun be kimmy liao..haha...End up we went to Chinatown to eat and as usual tok abt the happenings we had...HAIZ.............................................really really very lousy mood...... = (
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Vanishing thots @ Thursday, October 25, 2007 | back to top
laz nite i fell aslp with the mask on...my poor skin..not the 1st time i fell aslp with the mask..nobody woke me up..juz off the light only..
anyway yesterday encounter a cheapo bitch asking for refund...its not abt the few dollars she is asking back or the fact she is asking for refund dat i call her a cheapo bitch..its dat i really find no valid reason for her to request for it and on top of dat her attitude is damn bad..! and her facial expression..see liao totally roll eyes 100 times..obviously i said NO to her but too bad, overruled by the upper pple... *sigh wateva..!
currently very addicted to the DS Lite Nicky had lend me..been playing most of the time whenever i can..play until fell aslp oso..haha..cant help it...But Nicky damn bad lor..asked me play those games dat dun need to use my (small) brain..totally QIAN DA..! =b But i juz love to play those puzzles kind of games..& anyway who says my brain is small..?
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Vanishing thots @ Wednesday, October 24, 2007 | back to top
the system at my workplace was down from 8am till near 1pm..damn terrible..!!! double work to do after dat..as if it wasn't busy enuff...but wat to do..can only depend on the IT to fix it..cant control how long they take..
went to watch The Brave One...erm...cant exactly gif this movie a rating..but i find it quite nice..not bad..den i got gastric when i was abt to go home..its been quite sumtime since i last had gastric..the pain was quite bad, i felt like curlin myself into a ball..cant wait to reach hm to have the gastric pills and lie on my bed.. o.O
but anyway...im feeling damn alrite now..
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hmmm..suddenly kinda miz (is miz too strong a word..?) my hairstylist, Zun..well..cant exactly say my hairstylist lar..i dun really haf a fix one and i dun often trim/cut my hair..i tink it was like 7/8 mths b4 i went to have a haircut ard 2 weeks back..and also it was my first time to have Zun cut my hair (my previous hairstylist quit liaoz)..but he did a great job..compliments received.. ; )
i duno y i miz/thot of him all of a sudden..mayb cos he makes me feel very comfortable...? and left me quite an impression oso...cos of my bro actually..
he came to find me while i had my haircut..he thot Zun was my fren...which i was quite surprise..didnt realise we were toking like frenz or sumhow made my bro thot dat we known each other..wateva....i need to slp...tink nobody understand wat shit i writing...
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Vanishing thots @ Tuesday, October 23, 2007 | back to top
wOw..geTTing jay's concert tix is like playing the stock market..kept exchanging sms and calls with my frenz..its like the Sistic webbie hang/down cos most prob too many pple trying to access...so unable to purchase the tix online..so alot of updating abt current status..haha..but finally manage to get the tix...all thanks to nicky for the 4 hrs of queue..! duno how to express my thanx..im so damn happy and excited..hahahaha...besides this..the rest of the day aren't too great..oh wait..1 more ting..shld consider not bad lar...which is....i saw sumone who look like the twin-band 2MORO during work..95% lookalike lor..the other 5% was becos this guy looks older, i tink shld be in his 30's...well, im not a fan of the band but i find it interesting to discover/see lookalike...i still rem dere's this hairstylist who look like 5566's Zax Wang..i felt so funi, kept tinking "wang ren fu cuttin my hair"...haha..cldn't resist telling him i tink he look like Wang Ren Fu...haha..alot of pple comment so too as from his reply....but really another super lookalike lor..haha..well..back to the yucky stuff...1stly, my back is still abit painful..cos there's this sumbody who came in while i was searchig for sumting at the cupboard near the door..and he juz let the door slam onto my back..! wats the point of saying "ay, be careful" when the door has oreadi hit my back and i have shouted out in pain..? WAT IS THE POINT..? idiot...im really angry cos its really painful..!!and also...if im rite and u r in the wrong...i dun care if u raise ur voice/stare/roll ur eyes at me..im juz gonna argue reason with u..i wun gif in to u..not at all...! by being nasty to me will only make tings worst..i wun bother to help u...and....if i never ask for ur comments pls keep ur mouth shut...! if i need advice/comment from u, i will ask u..dun need u to KPO and tell me ur thots abt the issue..im toking to my fren, not having open grp discussion...the worst is telling me 'u still need US to teach u meh"...HELLO...wake up ur idea..im toking to my fren (or shld i say A fren), why wld the 'US 'even appear...? who says i need u to teach me anyting...?im not even asking for ur advice/comment in the 1st place..im juz randomly sharing my thot and asking for opinion frm my fren..totally none of ur biz...! and afterall, ultimately i will make my own decision..i juz ask cos there's no harm asking..aRRGGHHH..im becuming a old grumpy granny..complaining this and dat...HAIZ..
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Vanishing thots @ Sunday, October 21, 2007 | back to top
Laz nite plan to take a 2hr nap starting from 8pm..end up until this morning 11+..woke up so hungry cos no dinner...wonder y no one woke me up..i have becum more and more lazy..till im lazy to go out on my off-day 2day..have been online almost the whole day..playing game mostly..and watching Romantic Princess (Gong zhu Xiao Mei)..its funi..didnt expect to cry at episode 2 though..haha..ohh..a must watch show is Why Why Love (Huan Huan Ai)..Super nice..!!! neway forgot to mention dat i watch The Nanny Diaries..its a heartwarming comedy that brought tears to my eyes..thumbs up..! as for Mr Woodcock, its funi but i wun give it a super high rating...still lots of movies waiting for me to catch..
Saw this Bi Pa Mi drink the other day..has this drink been out for long..?it was my 1st time seeing it 2 days back..wonder wat it taste like, wld it be like pi pa gao..? haha..wateva, curiosity wasn't strong enuff to make me buy and try it.. =b
ohhh...JAY IS FINALLY GOING TO HAVE CONCERT OVER HERE..!! 19TH JAN..Wat a long wait....planning to get the most expensive tix, $198..Hopefully can get real good seats..!! **so damn excited**
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Vanishing thots @ Saturday, October 20, 2007 | back to top
no outcome....yet...Wld u consider it as gd or bad..for me its definitely not gd..u waited for today and yet were told to wait again..and worst w/o a deadline..wat the hell...HAIZ...neWay...took sum neo-prints with my bro today..lots of fun posing..haha..
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Vanishing thots @ Friday, October 19, 2007 | back to top
Cravings...
~ Koka Instant noodle (bought them but LAZY to cook & wash)
~ Big Mac (w/o lettuce) meal along with hot fudge sundae
~ Ben & Jerry's Ice cream
~ Jollibean chocolate pancake
~ Sushi
~ Root-beer float
Misses...
^ Swing @ Bukit Batok (been long since i laz went dere with Bon, wonder if its still dere)
^ Hanging/chilling out at/over nite
^ Beach
^ Villa Bali (though lots of familiar faces long gone)
^ Going to the pool for a swim
^ Taiwan
tmr is abit diff..the outcome of an issue will be out..wld i be able to smile or wld i need a shoulder to lean on..i wont know..im feeling kinda insecure now...but i cant do anyting...except wait...........
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Vanishing thots @ Thursday, October 18, 2007 | back to top
i MiSS NaNa..Work w/o her is SianZZz...nO 1 to joKe and Tok CocK witH...sumorE she is a Great partneR tO work with..ouR shifts havE been diff since last week.... = (
noW partner with this neW Lady/Woman..i wana expLode..!! can u imagine one ting ask 2-3 times..? and its not as if the whole day she only got one ting to ask me....& sum are really simple and straight forward..y muz ask so many times..? i dun understand..! watever the reason is..doesnt she see my fustration...!!!! ARGGGGHHH..!
* idiot look....
hMM...neway..today Dr George trip over a cleaner (she was squattin behind) as he step back and they fell together..the strange ting is i never laugh when i saw it..usually when i see pple trip or fall i sure laugh, be it a stranger or my bez fren..Im NOT EVIL hor..the concern whether is the party ok or not is dere, juz dat i cant help not to laugh.. =b lf u insist im evil and dat i shld haf sum sort of karma or so..well,im the kind that can trip over the same spot 3 times in a row..happy?..
i seriously wonder y i didnt laugh..gave it a thot over dinner..came to conclusion muz be becos of the expression the cleaner had..she look kinda pissed and painful..?
ohhh..b4 i end..i muz complain abt this..i cant stand my neighbour..!! she simply doesnt know how to respect pple's privacy..!! she may b frenz with my parents but she dun haf a share in this hse...wat makes her tink she can juz step into the hse as and when she likes..sumtimes even step straight into the rooms..? is she nuts..? and she alwaz like to ask her daughter to look at me...be it im preparing to go out/work or the worst when im eating..can u imagine u were eating and 2 pple juz stand dere and observe u..? is eating sumting new..?or m i an alien..? and if she ever spot me walking past her hse, she will surely ask her kids to look at me..where's dere to see...? do i transform into sumting diff everytime i pass by..?
RIDICULOUS.....
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Vanishing thots @ Wednesday, October 17, 2007 | back to top
~ Too many pics from Taiwan..juz share 3 of them...hehe
*View fom Taipei 101 observatory..
* "posing" outside Dior display @ Taipei
* i will miss this place for a certain reason
iTs been damN LONG since i last blog...anyway the past few entries were pathetic..hahaha..though the blog was started 2 years back..u can see how few entries i wrote..
then again...got the sudden thot to blog..as usual, too many things had happen over the period..happy ones like trip to taiwan and sad ones like...well..shall not mention it,sum issue in the family..
my bday was 2 weeks back..im 22 oreadi..oh my...its like soon im gonna reach mid 20s..then 30.....then...wow...so scary..duno wats gonna happen or how would tings change into..
hmmm..i cant wait for october to end...coS i wana get my profit sharing..$$$$..its not gonna be much but still..i love $$.!!! and not forgetting its the main reason i withdrew my resignation..
wat should i work as after i quit..?i seriously duno..so lost....
Neway, today got a call from a fren Jacob..been years since we last contact so was kinda surprise..and the amazing part was i actually thot of contacting him the day before but sumhow i changed my mind..End up receiving a call from him.. *did he hear my thots abt him?
he called to intro me to work as a recep in his client's company..not exactly wat i want though..i wan sumting with prospect or at least of interest..
But anyway it was juz an offer out of the blue as i happened to cum to his mind..hope to meet up with him soon.. =)
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* "posing" outside Dior display @ Taipei
* i will miss this place for a certain reason 
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