today went to watch Fred Claus with Nicky @ PS..very nice movie...funi and touching..cant help with the tears..strongly recommended show..! i love X'Mas....the atmosphere is juz so nice and special..but at the current moment i still dun have the X'mas mood yet..too much tings on mind..need to clear them off 1st..
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* teddy bears from Nicky from his thai trip..oso got me a bag & cam cover.. =)
b4 meeting Nicky, i was on my bed reading and listening to my mp3..den after dat i went into sum tinking after i put the book aside...i was tinking abt the pple dat i have been missing/really missed..i missed my 1st ex for a very long time..the entry for 13 March '07 was abt him..i shld say it was only dat day dat i finally told myself "he doesnt like you..mayb he has never liked you.." cant believe it took me years to have the courage to tell myself dat..
after break up..he avoided me for a period of time..den most of the time im the one making contact, either forwarding msgs or telling him wat had happened (only major issues dat upset me lar..)..not forgetting his bday on 16 jan..and wishing him merry xmas..afew times i told myself not to do so...getting a response from him is like pple waiting to strike 4D..wat for put myself so down..? been long since i last contacted him..so recently juz 4ward him a msg..i didnt tell him abt tmr's issue though..dun see the point in telling.....
den i thot abt Tian Xin...duno eactly wat to say abt him..we weren't 2gether b4..'lost and found' him....the kind of miss i haf for him is whereby sumtimes i juz wish i cld stand in front of him and give him a smile or even a hug..
hmmm..duno y i had all these nonsense tinking dis afternoon..is it too much of tings for me to take recently?..becos i know they are the ones who can really gif me a sense of security/protection..
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